A prisoner within my own mind

I feel trapped, the depression setting in
I long for freedom, but bars contain me
Why can’t I be free, control of my emotions?

I see the light, but the walls surround me
They laugh at me, mocking me
The thoughts, un-escapable

Darkness surrounds my mind
Impurity and lies
Can’t I just die?

Why can’t I flee from these?
I want to run, break down these walls
But I am trapped within my mind

I can’t escape myself, my thoughts
To separate would mean ending all

In circles I turn
Someone reach out for me
But no one can

I feel hopeless
Never to escape this pain
Once more I end up here

I know death is not the answer
But it seems at times the only one

No! I will not, not again
I will not allow you here; this is my mind!

You must leave; I must break free
You do not own me
My lord owns me!

He will break me free
I have to walk with him
He owns all

Have mercy on me
My mind; tainted and unclean
I cannot wash it

But you don’t require purity
You make all wholesome

Free me of pain
Break these walls and chains
My father, help me!

You are all; I am not
I am death without you

My only escape seems to expire
But that is my only escape

With you, I have many
Freedom

But freedom in you
Not independence
I loathe my own

Without you, I am trapped
As good as dead

Hold me lord
Carry me through

I despise myself
I build up walls

Break my walls
Knock them down
Build endless love
A Desire for you

I need your love
Nothing else at all

As I lay, watch me close
Search me; see me
Clean it all

Wash me with your blood
Rid me of myself
Godliness, holiness
Fill me with you

Love me lord
Father-God
I adore you