Sept 16 '07 Have Mercy

Why?

Why must I cry like this, Why must I feel so much agony.
I long for Your love, but I turn away for my earthly dwelling.
In Your arms I find grace, I find peace.

To have had You than turn away… what a hypocrite I am.
To be perused so tangibly by my Lord, but I leave.
Why must I do what I hate, Why must I ignore my Love.

To come before You renders so much guilt; so much anguish.
I cannot come; I cannot see your face.
My pain is unbearable, impossible to endure.
I need You; I need Your grace.

Your Word tells me of Forgiveness, but I cannot accept.
I lay in my disgrace, inflicting my own torment.
Graciously you bestow upon me, yet I do not open.

To acquire this gift, for my unforgivable sin;
I cannot grasp your grace.

Pull me up, drag me out; I need Your help.
I inflict my torture; it is deserved.
But Christ, My LORD;
You did not; you were not.

Yet You endured, my pain, my agony.
You are perfect in every way.
Crusified upon the Cross,
Bearing my sin, so I can stand clean.

Why do you love a sinner like me?
I am the lowest of dirt, the worst of all.
You look on me with favor, with mercy and grace.
You smile at my innocence than carry me as I fall.

I want to leave this place, leave my flesh.
Away from this war, into your arms I desire.
But Your glory is first, How long must I wait?
How long must I endure for You?

Eternity I will wait for one moment with You.
Woe to me for my unrest in You.
Bring me to Your forgiveness;
To Your grace and love.
Have mercy upon me my Jeschua.